So I've come to the realization that fall just is a sucky time for me. For the last 4 years something terrible has happened in the months of Sep or Oct. 4 years ago it was the killer Masons on the mission trying to cap me, and for the last 3 years I've broken up with great girls, girls that I probably could have married had I tried harder and been more patient. These experiences have totally shaped who I became that year and how I acted and reacted in certain situations. But you know what, that is a bunch of shiz, I can't let how others treat me effect how and who I am. It's time to start living for me, not for the person that I'm dating at the time. Christian told me last night at the Cary Judd concert(which was awesome by the way!) that before I can be happy with someone else I have to be happy with me. It's totally true, and I am happy with me, and all the crappy drama that happens is totally avoidable and that's what I'm going to do.
I just got a gym membership to 24 hour fitness with Nick and let me tell you it has been the first time in a long time that I've worked out and I am SOOOOOO freaking sore. But yeah, I just want to be happy with me, help make my friends happy, serve the Lord and take awesome pics.
ed since I've last posted a blog, I'm not sure how this whole thing works yet, how I can see other people's blogs and shiz but whatev. Things have been really crazy, about 2 weeks left in the semester so everything is due. I went to AZ a few weeks ago with Nate and C for Brad's wedding which was a total blast. We went to
the Grand Canyon and got searched for drugs on the way back. Liz and I ended things completely, I threw up. I'm sad but I hope 
I can someday love someone as much as I loved her, you know? Well it's crazy late and I have to work on some pics before tomorrow. Peace
